As you can see, my 2012 Word of the Year is HOPE. Before I talk about that, I want to remind you of my history with the WotY.
For 2010 I used Christine Kane’s Word of the Year Discovery Tool to come up with my Word for that year, which was PRESENCE. I abandoned the idea about two months into the year and feel like some time I may need to revisit that one.
For 2011 I decided on the word JOY. I didn’t blog about it, but it was amazing. I did art using the word. I saw the word everywhere. I thought about it and dreamed about it and let it seep into every part of my being. And gradually, throughout the year, I found JOY taking over my life. Not every minute was JOYful, but I grew and changed and found what I need to do and be to have JOY in my life. I ended the year on a very positive note, having healed something that was hurting under the surface for a long time and I didn’t even know it. I gave myself permission to unforgive people, and to set clear boundaries, and that if I don’t set clear boundaries from the start, I can still set those boundaries going forward. I reclaimed my safety when a situation got out of hand. I made new friends that I love to pieces. I started to take control of a medical disorder that I’ve been living with for a long time, and while some days are still a problem it’s usually almost like I don’t even have it. I lost some weight. I learned that self-care is important, and that I need to make it a priority in my life. I got a pink streak in my hair in the summer. I worked through The Artist’s Way in the first three months of 2011. I thought I was strong before, but I finished 2011 even stronger and healthier and happier, with more JOY than I would have thought possible a year ago.
For 2012, I didn’t need to work through a discovery tool and I didn’t even need to think about it. I was sent an email about a new message on a forum I use asking people what their Word of the Year is for 2012, and before I could think “I have to think about it,” the word popped into my head: HOPE. This year I want to have HOPE. I want to give others HOPE. I want to HOPE for things and see them manifest. I want to remember JOY and learn how it interacts with HOPE. I am very excited to see where this year and this word lead me.
My first post talking about my word of the year feels like it was written forever ago, but really it was just over a month ago. My word is Presence, and it’s definitely a challenge at times.
While my husband was in the hospital, he did a lot of sleeping… and I did a lot of watching TV, and playing solitaire on my phone. I had a book with me, but for some reason I just didn’t feel like reading. On the other hand, since I couldn’t get on the Internet I wasn’t on the computer all day, which was a positive difference.
Now that he’s out, I have been on the computer less during the day than I used to, but staying up far too late into the night playing stupid Facebook games… they are evil, I tell you! They suck the life out of you and before you know it, you’ve wasted hours away. Here and now I’m stating my new intention: If I play Facebook games, I am limiting myself to an hour a day total. Okay, maybe two to start, but that’s the total for all the games I play there. I have to get a stopwatch application that can help me time it.
So what prompted this check-in? A post by Christine Kane about Getting Back on Course. It’s a video blog, and since I can’t print it up I took notes as I watched it. The first thing on her list of what to do to get back on track is “Be Present” — clearly this is speaking directly to me, as that is my goal for this year! She mentions that one helpful thing is to write down your intention and read it (aloud) every day. That makes sense, as it keeps it fresh in your mind if you’re constantly reminding yourself about it. I’ll have to figure out the best way to remember to do that daily.
Now that my husband is out of the hospital and in recovery, things should be returning to normal pretty soon as far as my life goes. I took a couple weeks off from work and will be going back Tuesday, and then I’ll be back home. So I am trying to get back into blogging a few times a week now. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers while I was away. I don’t have a lot of followers, but I’ve sure missed you guys!
Yet another great idea I got from Christine Kane’s blog: A gratitude journal. I first heard about writing down gratitudes from Rhonda Britten and Iyanla Vanzant on the TV show Starting Over, a show here in the US where women lived together in a house to work through their issues with life coaches. It sounded like a cool idea, but I never did it.
I love Christine’s post so much. It makes it so easy! I don’t know why I always thought it would be hard, but this makes it simple. Every night, write 5 things you are grateful for. And the best part is that it’s okay to repeat things! Christine says, “they don’t always have to be new and different.” It makes sense, but I always thought that if I was making lists of things I’m grateful for, I should always think of new things. Which is ridiculous! I’m not thankful for my husband just once, I’m thankful for him every day. So why not list him lots of times, on lots of days?
I decided that since the lists will only be five things, unless I feel like doing more (I don’t want to set the bar high and then not reach it and get upset), I should use a small notebook. So I am using this adorable one I got at Borders a few years ago. I know it was when the last Traveling Pants book was out, because we put the notebooks by the books to try to sell more. Anyway, the pocket on the front is an actual pocket, which I love.
And here is my first gratitude list. Since I haven’t written my second yet. First is actually a couple pages about what a gratitude journal is, from Christine’ blog post and another blog post I found about the same idea. And then is this (you might be able to click it to see it bigger, not sure).
So it’s almost bedtime, and after I bring the garbage downstairs I will be working on my next list. I am hoping that writing these lists every night will help me to remain present in my life by encouraging me to really pay attention to the good things in each day.